I haven't really gotten to hear a sermon lately. I've been to church, but I spent the sermon time wrangling kids. But last night, on the way home, I heard four preachers having a round-table discussion on self-control. Here's where I got blasted between the eyes:
"Self control doesn't just mean walking away from a temptation, or stopping when you've had enough. It means mastery of something that wants to control YOU. It means laying something good down so you can pick up something better."
I thought about that as I ate a whole box of macaroni and cheese for dinner.
....pause for sigh....
So this morning, I signed back on to the Weight Watcher's website for the first time since September, just before all this crazy travel started. I got on my iCalendar and plotted out what the school day is going to look like when I go back to work, and I factored in 45 minutes of exercise time on 4 weekdays, with hopefully time for more on Saturday/Sunday. In essence, I made a plan. I also had my first real Quiet Time, since both girls went down for a morning nap at the same time, something we haven't done in a few days. I started the book, "Praying the Names of God" by Ann Spangler, because it's short sections, but packed with meat. And it lends itself naturally to real interaction with the Lord through deep looks into His character. This week is "Elohim", which is the name of God mentioned in Genesis 1, at creation. My prayer this week is to become the person God created me to be, and to likewise do my part in helping my girls become who God created them to be.
Oh, and as for this 5K thing....It terrifies me. Running makes me afraid. I'm afraid of having an asthma attack. I'm afraid of knee pain. I'm afraid of the time commitment. And I'm afraid I will like it. I can walk a 5K now. I can ride 16 miles in an afternoon on my bike. But I am afraid to run. It totally intimidates me. But I owe it to myself, and to the girls, to try. I've got friends doing it who are starting from ground zero, like me. I'll let you know how it goes.
Thanks, by the way, to those who have been contributing both here, and at the church, to our last stretch of funds owed to the agency. Our prayer for everyone who has helped us along the way is that God will restore to them ten times what they have given us. He does that kind of thing, you know. We really, sincerely, deeply, truly appreciate every gift, every prayer, every meal, every thing you have done for us.